So Thursday I was released from MD and I’ve gradually started training the way I want to but for some reason there is a mental block there. I don’t know if I feel my ass has expanded so much over the past 10-12 weeks that I don’t want to have the jay rays (judgement rays) or if it’s I had such a bad last race before the injury or if it’s fear of failure as I start building my base back up in preparation for Ironman Texas.
As a female, we are always self aware of our appearance… when out at Kona for Ironman World Championships, people seemed VERY surprised I was going to do IMTX. Maybe some of the emotions got to me out there being amongst the best. I don’t really know but I feel like I’m carrying around these ghosts with me – Bad Race Ghost, Bad Body Image Ghost, Fear of Failure Ghost, and the Bad Injury Ghost (my runner’s knee is still healing & I was told not to do long distance running… what does that mean?! 2,4,6, or 8 miles? No, I didn’t get a definitive answer).
Now I know that this may be the off-season however, I’m not really getting an off-season. I’m planning a couple 1/2 marathons in the winter/spring, and flying to a couple early season races to prepare for May’s D Day. I need to figure out how to get rid of these ghosts before it’s too late! I’ve gotten back on the horse easily when falling off, so I don’t know why I can’t get back on my game right now and it’s driving me crazy! HELP! I know I’m not the only one going through the ‘come-back’ 🙂
|Soph’s pretty tall & I’ve gotten right back on her after falling from a jump… possibly hurting my head.|
Don’t forget this week, I’m drawing for my Kona tee giveaway… it’s pretty sweet! You won’t find this shirt anywhere!